One minute I have peace, the next it gets disrupted. But I guess that’s the way life is, always going up and down.
I’m halfway into my new phase of my life, and the uncertainty of many things are actually bothering me. Making friends all over again may seem interesting, but it brings on a whole new level of fear that somehow I won’t fit in. I mean I have friends in school, but there aren’t many who are my comfort friends. What’s more, I don’t really have many girl friends. All of these relationships with people will definitely be nurtured and matured with time, and I pray to God that He will make a way for me. I’m somewhat very conscious about the people around me, cause I don’t want to be seen with too many guys, although I have no expectations to live up to from people, except for God and myself. But ohwellz, some part of me cave into the expectations and judgement of society.
Throughout the past few days, I was reminded time and again to be grateful of what I have. Because I’m really much luckier than everyone else and I thank God for that. I just got reminded by what Brander showed me the other time. The article about people in school who are famous and good looking actually face a lot of insecurities, it’s just not shown to everyone. And I guess we always look up to people in life, and envy them for what they have. Yet sometimes maybe it doesn’t occur to us that people might actually want to be in our position. I think it’s common that we all get carried away with what we want instead of what we have, and that leaves us with little gratitude about things we already have. “Whatever you have, it’s enough. Thank God for everything you have.” Heard this during sermon yesterday and I think it definitely serves as a reminder for me to be grateful of everything that I have. I am truly more blessed than many people, and I take comfort in that.
I am going to miss this two people a lot. They are my best friends and we are all going to be separated up again. But I know that everything between us are going to be okay. And I hope that school will treat all of us nicely when it starts. Love you two very very much.
1. Thou shalt fend off a friend’s embarrassment. In the event of a friend being incapacitated, take responsibility of preserving their dignity. That means deleting their computer history of any odd, inappropriate, abnormal website listings and trashing any shameful possessions that they own.
2. Thou shalt be understanding and considerate of a friend’s responsibilities and goals. If you want to hit the bars or clubs but the friend you invited has extra work for an important goal, or a relationship to tend to — don’t give them a hard time about it. Truth is they’d probably love to hang, but they’re obviously sacrificing for something important. A true friend is always considerate of another’s obligations and aspirations.
3. Thou shalt not allow a friend to unknowingly let go of his or herself. If you notice that a beer belly or a triple chin is developing, be a pal and let it be known. Just a little hint will do. Say something along the lines of, “Man, you haven’t been working out much lately and that’s a lot of Taco Bell.” We see ourselves constantly every day, so it’s not always easy to recognize physical changes. That’s what kind friends with good vision are for.
4. Thou shalt honor the ‘dibs’ rule… kind of. When you’re out and spot a physically attractive individual, the first person to call ‘dibs’ is expressing interest, and reserving the first access to approaching said beautiful creature. Here’s the thing: ‘Dibs’ can only be applied to one individual at a time. You can’t just shout ‘dibs’ on all of the pretty people in the joint.
5. Thou shalt not habitually bum off of a friend. There’s nothing wrong with borrowing things when necessary, but this norm in which only one person per circle of friends purchases gum has got to stop. Asking for the occasional stick of gum is completely acceptable, but never investing in some for yourself makes you a pest. Aside from gum, it goes for mooching food, drinks and whatnot from your pals. Don’t eat the fries off of my plate and a bit of everyone else’s meal until you’ve consumed a free sampler. Friends do lend or give each other stuff, but it’s mutual — not one-sided.
6. Thou shalt provide courtesy laughs when necessary. If we make an unfunny joke, nothing is worse than the punch line being followed by pure silence. Help a friend out and give a chuckle. Don’t go overboard to the point where you look foolish for laughing at such a bad joke — but make it audible. We’ve all seen that contestant on Family Feud who gives a terrible response, yet their family members applaud and say “good answer,” as if they don’t know that a red ‘X’ is looming. It’s just like that. A little support to knock complete mortification down to mild humiliation.
7. Thou shalt not have anything to do with a friend’s ex. That means no happy conversations, separate friendships or dating your friend’s former lover. You have to realize that they’re your friend’s ex for a reason — and now that they’re not together, you can’t have meaningful contact with them. It’s not high school so if you run into a friend’s ex, there’s nothing wrong with being cordial. However, anything more will probably been interpreted as excessive.
8. Thou shalt not replace a friend with an acquaintance met through the original friend. When you meet the friend of a friend, you might hit it off and be rather fond of each other. That’s all fine and dandy, but don’t begin neglecting the person who made your newfound friendship a possibility in the first place. Overlooking an old friend can make them feel expendable, and nobody likes the thought of being replaced.
9. Thou shalt be consistently reliable for a friend. Imagine how annoying flakes and undependability are. Those aren’t the qualities of someone you want to be associated with regularly. Obviously there are times where we’re truly unavailable, but if you make plans or are direly needed — you should come through. You’ll know when somebody considers you a friend because they’ll ask you to help ‘em move… unless you own a truck. Then they probably just need your truck.
10. Thou shalt be a human vault. The ability to keep secrets is crucial in every friendship. When something epic happens — be it awesome, awful, awkward, shameful or whatever — we have to share it with someone. Sometimes knowing it occurred in our own mind isn’t enough, and the story is too juicy to not be shared. This is where a good friend is important. We should be able to withhold deep dark secrets without the possibility of someone spilling the beans. That doesn’t mean telling others, but making them swear to never repeat it. It means not a word. Secrets aren’t meant to be transferable, so keep the heavy stuff in your safe.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of ulterior motives. Be kind anyway.
If you are honest, people may cheat you. Be honest anyway.
If you find happiness, people may be jealous. Be happy anyway.
The good you do today may be forgotten tomorrow. Do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have and it may never be enough. Give your best anyway.
For you see, in the end, it is between you and God. It was never between you and them anyway.
I’ve been wanting to type a lot of things, but I didn’t capture it when it appeared, and obviously old me cant remember much.
I’ve been feeling rather happy recently, maybe it’s because I’ve been more happy go lucky. But I guess I don’t change so easily either, I’ve been feeling really distant from people regardless of how much I talk to them. Perhaps it’s something bad of me that I always think and hope for the best whenever it comes to friendship. Though most of the time, these friends are seasonal. Friends come and go, true friends are hard t come. Yet I always hold on to the hope that I can be good friends with everyone I know. Somehow naive eh? Because not everyone is gna like me, no matter what I do. Misunderstandings are going to happen without anyone talking about it which makes things worse. So yeah, pretty much feeling insecure about everything.
Hoping too much is good and bad at the same time, because without hoping you’ll never know what is around the corner, but hoping too much gives you too much expectations.
I don’t get what I’m talking anymore, I shall stop here. Church tomorrow :-) always feel happy and energetic no matter how tired I am!